The new year is as good a time as any for sizing things up and wondering what improvements can be made. Not only is it the beginning of the year, but it was in January 2004 that I first met my Dan face to face and thus sealed the deal, so to speak. It sealed the deal so well that I moved in just a few weeks later. Heh.

I can’t believe it’s only been three years; I feel like I’ve loved him forever. I can’t think of my love for him in time increments, only in depth. But still, the arrival of January means we’ve been together another year and makes a good marker in my mind.

We had a really good year, too. These last couple of months have been a bit stressful, but it’s going to be okay and we can actually see some of the good that will come from the whole experience. We just can’t wait until things settle down enough for us to get back to being “us” again. We’ve been working as a team but because of circumstances, together time just isn’t happening right now. Soon though…

In the meantime, I’m getting over a nasty cold and trying to think of constructive things I can do with my newfound “me” time. As soon as I’m healthy enough, I think my first order of business should be to take down the Christmas tree. Hey, I didn’t put it up until two days before Christmas, so I figured I’d leave it out longer this year. (That’s my story anyway.) But with all the other trappings of the season gone, it’s really starting to clash with the decor so it’s gotta go.

Once I get my living room back, I want to start working on me. I guess I might as well bite the bullet and call these my new year resolutions. They all have more or less the same purpose in mind; making life better.

I won’t bore you with the usual stuff like exercising more because that’s just what I have to do to offset all the time I’ve been sitting on my booty in this computer chair. That’s not exactly a resolution though, that’s just reality setting in. Now all I need to do is figure out how much time I need to spend on the treadmill to offset the time I spend playing Zuma.

I do have some kinky resolutions though.

1) Give Dan more blowjobs. I can’t think of a better way to improve both our lives. I get to do something I enjoy, he gets something he enjoys, we’ll both be in better moods overall, and if I’m real lucky, the recent increase in my ebay purchases won’t be noticed.

2) Work on my leather crafting skills. I made this resolution as soon as I opened my Christmas gifts and saw the new whippy thing that Dan bought me. Evil only begins to describe this thing…

squealing and cursing ends my description of it. I need to start making our toys in an effort to balance out the evil with good. That coupled with more of my first resolution might actually work.

3) Anal training. Yup, that’s right, I need to get my butt in training. The last time we tried a butt plug, it didn’t go so well. I don’t know what happened but I just couldn’t handle it. We had tried it a previous time with the same result and I had thought that was a fluke. Obviously it wasn’t so something needs to be done. To that end, I bought myself this anal trainer kit of butt plugs from Extreme Restraints.

The small and the medium don’t look too daunting, but that large one has me wondering just how “pliable” that’s gonna feel once it’s inserted. If all goes well, this could open me up to a whole new area of play, literally.

4) Do more yoga. Maybe that doesn’t sound kinky at first, but if you knew some of the positions I find myself in, you might understand a little better. There’s nothing that puts a kink in the kinky play like a muscle cramp at the wrong time. Besides, Dan wants to do more of those certain spanking positions that mean more positioning for me so I’d better get myself all limbered up for that.

Those were the only ones I could think of at the time I made my list. With a little work, I just might get somewhere with all of this and be a better and kinkier me when it’s over. Okay, so maybe I can’t get any kinkier, but I can darn sure try.